Fight the good fight...
When you get married, you repeat those fateful words of "in sickness and in health" but do you really think you'll need to think of them again until you are like 80 and wheeling each other around the nursing home? Today I thought of those words... I thought of them as I sat in my neurologist's office and watched on a computer screen the revelation that I in fact, after being told maybe and maybe not months before... I have MS.
I'll admit there was some sense of relief in the diagnosis... You are probably thinking, "how could she feel relief at a time like this?" Well I have had some MS like symptoms for about 2 weeks now, aside of course from the Optic Neuritis in April of this year, and finally being told what it was that was wrong was a relief - Believe me the relief itself, was short lived. Then I thought about my family, my husband, my friends and I started to get scared. Scared because I am now going to live my life in a constant state of uncertainity... Not uncertainity in where I'll spend Eternity - I know that but in how I am going to feel each and every day for the rest of my life. I know God is on my side but He was on Jonah's side before he ended up in a whale and don't get me started on how "on his side" he was with Job.
Our lives are being turned upside down right now with this diagnosis and oh did I mention, my husband, a sweet 31 years of age, was diagnosed with diabetes last week? I know that there is nothing we can't handle together but our lives are definitely going to change. We will literally being putting our vows into action every day as we care for each other and our children.
I am not complaining about being dealt this hand... well maybe a little, but I am going to admit that I am now in the uphill battle of my life. I know this isn't cancer or anything but too me, this is my cancer. This is my battle and one of the greatest tools in a battle is knowledge of the enemy. Right now I am not prepared to go to war but just wait, in the weeks and months that lie ahead, I am determined to put on my armour and gear up for the fight of my life... A fight that I hope to be able to withstand for a good eighty years or more.
A battle is not won without an army in the trenches... My army is all of you. I am asking you to stand up with me in this fight. To contribute to the cause of Multiple Sclerosis in whatever way you know how... Whether you are infinitely wealthy and can give millions or merely can volunteer at an MS walk in your community, I ask you to go into battle with me and fight the good fight, the fight for the cure for myself and millions others.
Rise up dear soliders and join me.
I'll admit there was some sense of relief in the diagnosis... You are probably thinking, "how could she feel relief at a time like this?" Well I have had some MS like symptoms for about 2 weeks now, aside of course from the Optic Neuritis in April of this year, and finally being told what it was that was wrong was a relief - Believe me the relief itself, was short lived. Then I thought about my family, my husband, my friends and I started to get scared. Scared because I am now going to live my life in a constant state of uncertainity... Not uncertainity in where I'll spend Eternity - I know that but in how I am going to feel each and every day for the rest of my life. I know God is on my side but He was on Jonah's side before he ended up in a whale and don't get me started on how "on his side" he was with Job.
Our lives are being turned upside down right now with this diagnosis and oh did I mention, my husband, a sweet 31 years of age, was diagnosed with diabetes last week? I know that there is nothing we can't handle together but our lives are definitely going to change. We will literally being putting our vows into action every day as we care for each other and our children.
I am not complaining about being dealt this hand... well maybe a little, but I am going to admit that I am now in the uphill battle of my life. I know this isn't cancer or anything but too me, this is my cancer. This is my battle and one of the greatest tools in a battle is knowledge of the enemy. Right now I am not prepared to go to war but just wait, in the weeks and months that lie ahead, I am determined to put on my armour and gear up for the fight of my life... A fight that I hope to be able to withstand for a good eighty years or more.
A battle is not won without an army in the trenches... My army is all of you. I am asking you to stand up with me in this fight. To contribute to the cause of Multiple Sclerosis in whatever way you know how... Whether you are infinitely wealthy and can give millions or merely can volunteer at an MS walk in your community, I ask you to go into battle with me and fight the good fight, the fight for the cure for myself and millions others.
Rise up dear soliders and join me.
posted by Minnesota Mommy at 8:37 PM
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